WHO TO CHOOSE???

Yesterday, when I was training, Mr.Aru came towards and asked me, "What actually you are training for?". I just keep quiet. "Why you don't want to train with them (Jing Yee's coach)? They are better. You have to be serious if you want to win". I replied "yes". I was.....!!! I changed to Jing Yee's coach from January until February because I don't want to train alone. But after competition, I changed back to my own coach because Mr. Rusdi and my friends said Mr.Alex is better. Ok, well. Do I need to change back? I think my choice can be change easily because of a few sentences. Haiz..... I am lack of confident. I think I just remain the same because this morning I met Mr.Rusdi and told him everything. He just said remain the same coach. I hope my choice is right. I hope I can always improve in my run.

I AM SO FOOLISH.....!!!

(CRY) I went for training on 25th June 2009, Thursday alone because Jing Yee was not feeling well. Then, Mr.Alex asked me to run fartlek 6 laps. Eventhough it is a happy moment because I finished it, I did something I shouldn't do. After the program, I don't have anything to do. I was just like cooling down. After a while, a negro chat with me. Then, he asked for my handphone numbers because he said he wants to contact me if any program for juniors is held. I am so foolish, stupid.....I gave it to him my mum's handphone numbers because I told him I don't have handphone. I was just thought later can attend with Jing Yee so both of us can improve faster. I didn't think more. I had save my mum's number in his phone. Later, I told my mum. My mum was suprised and told me a lot of crime is happening in the age of teenagers nowadays. My mum told me not to trust him. At night, my dad demanded and advised me not to give other people handphone numbers because we don't know whether the person is good or bad. Perhaps he wants to kidnap girls. (CRY) I really don't know what to do now. Yesterday, I was tired, very very tired. So my mum asked me to sleep earlier. I can't sleep. I went to bed and cry. Why am I so foolish? Why I didn't think the effect? WHY?WHY?WHY? I felt dizzy and had headache when crying. I really don't know what to do now....I think I should tell the guy that I don't need the program and borrow his handphone to delete my handphone. But I don't have the bravery. (CRY) I really very very very very .......regret!!! I won't repeat it again. I get a new lesson already. I will turn into a new leaf. I will. I will, but first of all I have to delete the phone numbers. How????? I really have no mood at school today. I was miserable in the morning. I was just thinking the way to delete my number. Foolish.....!!!!
(CRY) GOD!!! I HOPE NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO ME AND I HOPE THE GUY IS A GOOD GUY......PLEASE BLESS ME...!!!! I REGRET, REALLY REGRET!!!! PLEASE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE........

HAPPY OR SAD DAY??? :P

As you know, yesterday was Father's Day!!! My mum decided to cook curry fish for him as it is his favourite food... Yeah!!!Everyone ate happily and I am the first person who wished my father, "HAPPY FATHER'S DAY"....Haha!!! Then, my mum, sister and I wanted to make some juices for everyone after having the hot hot (still boiling)*curry*. Suddenly.....oh....oh!!! NO ELECTRICITY.......Haiz!!!! How worst TNB is...!!! Father's Day no electricity....Everyone suffered in hot and dark environment. It almost stopped at about 2 hours 30 minutes. Huu....!!! Then, at about 12.30 a.m, my dad got angry and he called TNB. What I heard was the main 电房 had spoiled. Then, around 12.50a.m, the light came again...thanks god!!! I prefer don't have water also don't want no electric. Haha....!!! Then, we finished our stuff.....Everyone took a bath and slept at 1.30 a.m. I am lucky cause Monday no school....if not I'll have headache for the whole day....!!! Well, anyway, "Father's Day" in 2009 cannot be forgotten because NO ELECTRICITY...!!!

HERE, I WOULD LIKE TO WISH EVERY FATHER IN THIS WORLD "HAPPY FATHER'S DAY"

READ THIS.....TEENAGERS!!! ^_^

I read an article this morning, entitled Living A Nightmare.....!!!! Hope you can get something from here.

My relationship with my mum is getting worse everyday. I do not know what the problem is and I quarrel with her everytime I try to communicate with her. Sometimes, I feel like running away but I am not that immature and silly. My mother likes to nag me. I hate it when she accuses me of something that I didn't do. She doesn't listen or care. This situation makes me cry alone in my room.

My father has always loved me the most in the family. Now he has stopped loving, talking to, and caring about me. I don't know what I have done to upset him. When his mood is good, I try to communicate with him but it is hopeless. Please help me deal with this nightmare of mine....

What should you do?
It's a common nightmare. Quarrelling with nagging parents who lack trust, feeling unloved and being wrongly accused is almost every young person's dilemma. Growing up is painful. Sometimes, you feel so alone because no one seems to understand. You believe that you have done nothing wrong but mum is always watching and nagging. Dad suddenly seems a stranger. You feel so totally estranged and neglected emotionally. There is no one to reach out and your tears are lonely and silent.

In this issue, you just don't know how to communicate with overly protective parents. However, instead of feeling angry and sorry for yourself, try to understand them. Dad loves you very much but he realises that his little girl has grown up. He doesn't know how to be demonstrative and probably feel awkward and uncomfortable showing his feeling. When you were little, he could hug and cuddle you. Now, he doesn't know where to put his hands. He feels completely helpless when you are hurt. He is simply at a loss so it's easier to allow your mum to take charge.

Mum loves you too but she must have been reading about gang rapes, drug scenes, teenage murders and missing girls. Parents are in high alert mode because so many horrible crimes are happening to young people. While distrust and suspicion will create tension and misunderstanding, parents have it tough trying to protect their children without the constant friction and stress.

So do not get angry and keep your cool. Share a little life with them. It is painful for them to accept that you do not need them anymore. And never forget to show them love and care. Makes them be confident to you. A call when you are late will calm their nerves and worries. A hug, small gift and a peck on the cheek will bring shine and pride to their day. Try to communicate with love and rage and frustration will soon be worn away.

BALLET.......

Well, I am a ballerina and now I am learning Grade 6 and Inter foundation. Actually, ballet is a technical dance. It is a dance which a ballerina needs to put a lot of expression when dancing. I love ballet very much. I think I can get what a ballerina should do when dancing. I can feel like dancing alone happily in a very spacious field with lovely music and none is disturbing me. Perhaps it was just like Barbie. Erm....Barbie movie. Every barbie in the movie dances ballet. What an amazing dance...!!! Haha.....maybe you will say I am very childish, so old already also want to be like barbie. Yeah, actually I love barbie. I hope to be like her one day.... dancing gracefully in front of all audience. Wow, I can't imagine!!!

Now, when I learn ballet in major grades, more new steps are difficult to do. Eventhough sometimes is very tired and my leg almost cramp, I just keep it on because I *think* I am going to be like barbie already......dancing ballet!!!! Haha..... Ballet is really an amazing and fanstastic dance. I want to thank my mum for allowing me to learn ballet since young......!!! If you all want to see how a ballerina dances......go and surf on Internet...!!! Then you will know how is it ^_^

BALLET IS A PERFECT DANCE........I LOVE IT!!!!!^_^ HOPE TO BE LIKE BARBIE.....HAHA

H1N1......

H1N1..... can this disease be cure? Any medicine provided? Hmm.....I think don't have. Why this disease want to attack us? Swine flue...? You keep disturbing everyone and now, much of us can't do many outdoor activities. Haiz.....hope you will die as soon as possible!!! Do you know now, it spreads by people.
Ya.... I just heard from my aunt that SJK(C) Davidson has this case. A Standard 5 girl was threatened by this disease is same standard as her daughter. Luckily not same class. She just came back from Australia on Wednesday and not feeling well. So her parents took her to hospital and the doctors assure that this girl got it.... What a sad new!!!
So, if this disease can't be cure and maybe everyone will die, why don't we spend the remainder time to do something we want? That's what I think....!!!^_^ But I think one won't get it if his anti-body is strong enough!!!
God, in the deep cure of my heart....I hope you will bless everyone to be healthy always everyday and hope this H1N1 will soon be cure........thankyou very much!!!

VERY HAPPY......!!!!

I am very happy because today when I go training, Jing Yee told me that her coach said I have higher up my knee when I am running. I really very happy. I have improve something. That's what her coach always tell me to do(high knee) everytime I run. Haha.....!!! I was jumping while holding Jing Yee's both hand. Really very happy, I have done something I want....!!!^_^
Today my coach is absent, so I trained with Jing Yee. We didn't train on Wednesday, so her coach asked her to do yesterday event.....guess what is that......!!!! They are 500 m, 400m and 300m. Wow!!! It was too tiring......, but I like found something when I run. I think my leg is getting stronger because normally when I run, my leg will be very *tired*. But today when I run 500m, I felt that my leg can run further and faster. That's what I think or maybe not or because that's the first run. Anyway, don't bother it, just do my best everytime.